Meowmixftw

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Speaking to the soulless by Meowmixftw, literature

I'm alive, but still not alive by Meowmixftw, literature

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I'm alive, but still not alive

Too often I feel Life passes me by Others move on Grow into a new mindset Find a new world And I'm left behind Lost in the commotion I know I would like change If only I knew how to make one But instead I stay rooted Stuck in old ways Afraid of the future Afraid of the past Afraid of the present Afraid. I never thought I would live a life Of monotony Same friends Same habits Same jokes Same life Same cycle Over and over and over I once had a bright outlook The world was mine for the taking That girl seems to have disintegrated And from the remains rose another Wallowing in self-pity Fearing the world Receding

Don't even look at this post. by Meowmixftw, literature

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Don't even look at this post.

Look me in the eyes, my dear Lay me upon a bed of roses Whisper sacred words in my ear And let me fade in bliss Cover me with sweet nothings Shower us with wonder Deluge the air with grace My heart's armor you will sunder Ride valiantly into the depths of mist Charge through all the pain Prove we aren't some lustful tryst And I promise to surrender my heart Trust me with your life's burdens Expose your heart's genuine hue Give me one more amorous kiss At last I give myself to you

The Plan by Meowmixftw, literature

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The Plan

Today I have a plan No matter what happens I will not think of him When I look at the sun And I'm reminded of his radiant smile I will not think of him When I pass on his jokes And I'm reminded of the music of his laugh I will not think of him When I see one helping another And I'm reminded of his gentle kindness I will not think of him When I see a happy couple And I'm reminded of my crippling infatuation I will not think of him When I see a girl crying And I'm reminded of my hopeless situation I will not think of him Today I had a plan No matter what happened I would think of him

Emotional Vignette: Shattered Lives by Meowmixftw, literature

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Emotional Vignette: Shattered Lives

I cringe as I hear the soft whoosh of the fridge opening, the small clink of a bottle being removed, the defeated shuffle of a lost soul. Mommy and daddy have been fighting again. I heard the screams, the shattering glass, the sobs mommy choked out as daddy brought down his hand. Brought it down again and again. I edge toward the kitchen and watch as mommy drowns her sorrows in vodka once more. Her face is red, other skin purple, black, blue, green, yellow-- all shades of pain. I watch silent tears trail down her face as she takes a swig straight from the bottle, dependent on the clear hand to whisk her away to a world where her and daddy do

Notice Me by Meowmixftw, literature

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Notice Me

I want to scream at you I want to look you in the eyes I want to grab you by the shoulders I want to make you notice me I just can't seem to get out the words I just can't seem to outshine my own doppelganger I just can't seem to even look up I just can't seem to be what everyone else sees me as I hide behind a fringe of hair I hide behind a blush I hide behind a small chuckle I hide behind my own kin I'm afraid to mess things up I'm afraid of ruining my only chance I'm afraid to make you hate me I'm afraid that I already have I only want to impress you Show you what I'm really like Not this blushing schoolgirl you see befo

Home for the Shattered by Meowmixftw, literature

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Home for the Shattered

Cut a little deeper Get a little higher Drift a little farther And your scars might fade Drop your trauma- And with it, your life- In the bottle And chug it down Maybe they'll get off your mind Cleanse out the bad From your blood Cut a few more times Until you're empty Perhaps it'll disappear like your life Smoke it, snort it, Inject the happiness And block out the pain Along with your mind And it could leave you You'll force yourself out Out of your own life Until you're too far When you call for help So you go to the home for the shattered

Naive by Meowmixftw, literature

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Naive

I can't help but Love it The dancing of my heart The smile and blush that surfaces The too-loud laugh that escapes The moment when your eyes meet mine The steady gaze affixed on the ground Is it wrong to be so Smitten? Just a young girl Bumbling along blindly Enveloped by a shroud of young love Unaware of her surroundings Eyes only on the prize It's hopeless And I know it But that doesn't stop me From pretending it isn't I'll keep my heart in the dark So it'll lose it's eyes If I don't, I know it won't survive But until I'm sure I'll stumble along Tripping over my words Falling on my confidence Getting back up to fa

Imperfect Me by Meowmixftw, literature

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Imperfect Me

I'm not The prettiest I'm not The smartest I'm not The funniest I'm not The strongest I'm not The kindest I'm not The fastest I'm not The bravest I'm not The most honest I'm not The most outgoing I'm not Anything I wish to be I can't Sing I can't Dance I can't Draw I can't Run I can't Write I can't Do anything I wish to do But I can Try I can Be myself I can Push others I can Dream I can Fight back I can Imagine all I wish to be And I guess That's all I can do As long as I'm Imperfect me

Point of No Return by Meowmixftw, literature

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Point of No Return

Go ahead Plunge the knife deeper Twist it a little Pull it down Open old wounds Rip the heart once more It's not like I care I'm already Fractured So I don't mind if you Push a little harder Crack a few bones Pierce the lungs Laugh at my pathetic coughs It's not like I'll fight I'm already Defeated So feel free to Leave me in the cold night Bleeding at alone Don't feel a thing See my last smile Give me one more cold stare It's not like I'll struggle I'm already Dying So leave me smiling As I transcend your cruelty As I transcend this cold night As I transcend life

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Speaking to the soulless by Meowmixftw, literature

I'm alive, but still not alive by Meowmixftw, literature

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I'm alive, but still not alive

Don't even look at this post. by Meowmixftw, literature

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Don't even look at this post.

The Plan by Meowmixftw, literature

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The Plan

Emotional Vignette: Shattered Lives by Meowmixftw, literature

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Emotional Vignette: Shattered Lives

Notice Me by Meowmixftw, literature

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Notice Me

Home for the Shattered by Meowmixftw, literature

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Home for the Shattered

Naive by Meowmixftw, literature

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Naive

Imperfect Me by Meowmixftw, literature

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Imperfect Me

Point of No Return by Meowmixftw, literature

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Point of No Return

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I'm Really Not Okay by CloudNumber8, literature

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I'm Really Not Okay

When I whisper of my woes How can anyone hear When the din of their own lives Is ringing in their ears Forcing a smile as they glance Frown as they look away Please somebody turn around I'm really not okay You refuse to see the signs A deluge of denial Drowns out my facial features The absence of a smile Obliged to ask how I am Your concerns I allay But then again I would do I'm really not okay Hold back the transparent tears A dam of repression I'll be damned if anyone Sees through my confession Slowly my world unravels Life's tapestry will fray My pain has been tailor made I'm really not okay I write poems

10 Reasons To Buy Toilet Paper by realARTIZT, literature

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10 Reasons To Buy Toilet Paper

1) To stuff my bra in hopes that you'll see me tonight 2) To dry the tears from my eyes when you don't 3) To blow my nose and try again tomorrow 4) To keep in my pocket just in case 5) To dab my lipstick before our date 6) To fix my mascara after you say you love me 7) To clean my glasses and see the truth on your collar 8) To wipe the crap off of your lips when you swear I'm the only one 9) To use every roll to cover your house in blankets of white 10) To replace the toilet paper I wasted on you

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Feb 17
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Deviant for 12 years
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When I first started writing, I was scared. Alone. Depressed. A self-destructing recluse. I was that way for years before, and I'm only just now coming out of it. I won't say I'm wise. I'm not. I don't know anything about life. I'm a fool, stumbling through life blindly. Stepping on hearts, tripping over words, falling on broken lives. I do my best to help everyone. I realize I can't do that. I'm far too naive to let that stop me. I try to be a better person. I really do. It's tough, but I keep hope alive the best I can. This is long, isn't it? Oh well. Anyway, I apologize in advance for my ditsy foolishness.

If you want my poetry and poetry from others more talented than I, go to my website.

Favourite TV Shows

Secret Garden, Danny Phantom, Avatar: The Last Airbender